lent

I was filled with frustration

So I had a fit

A verbal altercation with God

A day later, I was at church

I heard my pastor share about his cancer diagnosis with meekness

I was inspired to change my own heart a bit

The next day I was complaining to my counselor about everything I could think of

“Do you think you have a divided heart?”

“Absolutely, I do…”

“I have all of these longings and dreams and I’m failing at like 50% of them…”

“It’s lent, I gave these things up, I shouldn’t be at 50%.  That’s for goals, oh cool, I can see improvement, this is sacrifice, all or nothing and I’m at 50%...”

And then they responded, “Isn’t that the point?  To not just check or not check things off but to see what’s within you?”