I started to cry

On Sundays I do my best to sabbath.  Not necessarily in a religious context but I try to stay off social media, not listen to podcasts and things that consume my time, and just be present. 

But in the current context of life with quarantines, being present means being alone. 

I took a walk. My fourth or fifth walk of the day and I couldn’t take it any longer.  I needed background noise.  I got out my phone to listen to something and then I paused.  Why am I doing this?  I put my phone back in my pocket. 

I started to cry.

Simply, because I started to feel.